Friday, October 19, 2018

"There is no God"

"There Is No God. This negation must be understood solely to affect a creative Deity. The hypothesis of a pervading Spirit co-eternal with the universe remains unshaken."
— Percy Bysshe Shelley, Queen Mab, Canto VII, Note 13


I just saw this quote today and I'm struck by how it contemplates the concept of an "oversoul", similar to C.G. Jung and John Steinbeck (among hundreds more intellectuals, poets and scholars).  Did Shelley come upon this revelation on his own, or was he influenced?  This seems to prefigure the Human Potential Movement and the whole New Age Movement itself, and even points to the rather recent idea in science and spirituality that the universe itself is intelligent.

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Lovecraft's Racism and the World Fantasy Award

Recently a controversy erupted when an online petition was posted urging the World Fantasy Convention to change the current award, a bust of Howard Phillips Lovecraft by cartoonist Gahan Wilson (the "Howard") to a bust of Octavia Butler.  I met Octavia Butler back in the 90's at the Foolscap convention in Seattle. I was totally unfamiliar with her work; but since she was guest of honor I introduced myself (as did Rosemary Jones and Kris Walberg) and we had a lovely and long conversation with her mostly about the Clarion West Workshop, which Octavia was of the opinion would benefit mostly young writers who are tabula rasa.  "If you have a body of work already," she opined "it may not be for you."  She impressed me as a lovely, kind, supportive writer of other writers and a genuinely approachable and friendly person.  Later I learned of her ouvre and how well regarded she was in the speculative, SF field and have never forgotten that encounter.  Later I happened to glimpse her in the downtown Seattle post office, and because she seemed busy and intent on her errand, I did not approach.

Fast forward to the petition.  My experience with Lovecraft was life changing.  I like many, saw those lurid covers on the Signet reprints of Lovecraft's work and had to find out what that was all about. This was in Iowa, back in the late 60's, early 70's when something that looked like THAT was unique and unbelievably counter to the cultural grain; however, I grew up in a very strange place--I need to write about that someday.  I submit that I was the ONLY 9th grader in the state of Iowa reading about Rosicrucianism and Wilbur Whateley.  Confession: I didn't read the Dunwich Horror at that time, I'd watched the movie, which enflamed my adolescent imagination with its highly weird juxtaposition of hillbillies, ritual magic and strange creatures from another dimension (and Sandra Dee's very, very sheer shroud)), and I devoured all things Lovecraft.

When the controversy erupted, I immediately assumed it was angry women of color complaining about honoring a dead white guy, which I suppose in all honesty, points to an implicit failing embedded in my own character.  I'd heard the "racist" appellation lobbed at HPL before, and I'd always considered it a reference to the "degenerate" tribesmen in such stories as The Call of Cthulhu. Then I wondered if maybe he'd written something in his voluminous collection of letters that might have been more explicit.  Nobody except scholars want to read those.  However, to my dismay and horror, I have just learned about Lovecraft's vile 1912 poem: On the Creation of N***s.  This was written when he was 22 years old, old enough to know better, and it's really no more than a few lines of doggerel.  While most of Lovecraft's work will be forever anthologized and collected and remain in print--this poem will also survive for an entirely different reason, and will likely never be included in any print publication.

If we are to take the poem at face value, we are to be assured of Lovecraft's explicit racism; not only does he call people of color subhuman, he suggested that they are evil incarnate.

At this point two other vile screeds come to mind: Richard Wagner's "Jews in Music" and Orson Scott Card's "The Hypocrites of Homosexuality."*  Both of which deny full humanity to the subjects in their titles.  My sympathies to those of Judaic heritage and faith who cannot and will not subject themselves to Wagner's operas.  Likewise, I fully understand gay people who will never, ever, purchase another work by Orson Scott Card. And I ask myself, would I ever accept an award named after Orson Scott Card?  And my answer is a definite no.  So my sympathies have extended to those of color who cannot abide the thought of being honored with a bust of HPL.  Since I will never likely win that award, I have no oar in these waters.  I believe that the bust should be replaced by something non-human. It can therefore avoid tokenism, which the Butler choice would surely indicate, and avoid enraging old white guys like me, who chafe at being accused of holding views by dint of racial association, which we do not, and would never, have.

*Lovecraft's poem is more egregious than these examples, as he used his art to fulminate his rancid views on race--neither Wagner nor Card are primarily essayists.  But Lovecraft was a poet who perverted his artistic sensibility to further an evil intent.

An award more importantly acknowledges the work of the living, Honoring dead, past masters should be secondary. Lovecraft's work is in no danger of ever being out of print, or ceasing to influence future generations of fantasists.  Let us preserve the sensibilities of all involved, and move past this.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

The Black Dahlia Avenger

Recently completed The Black Dahlia Avenger by Steve Hodel, narrated by Kevin Pierce.  The book was extremely well written and edited.  And very well narrated.  His case for George Hodel as the murderer of Betty Short, the Black Dahlia, is meticulous and compelling.  It is also persuasive.  The introduction is particularly essential.  In it Steve describes his relationship with his father, which was distant, but cordial, and seemingly free of any deep seated animosity, but redolent of a 19th Century relationship--very not close emotionally.  More like a soldier addressing his commanding officer.  They professed love, but I really detected more of a mutual respect for one another's existence.  Not quite familial love, not in the way I define it.  However, it is meant to put the remainder of the book into this context--Steve had no axe to grind with his father when he began investigating his father's involvement in the Black Dahlia slaying; which did not commence until after his father's death.

Steve Hodel is a former LA PD homicide detective and so he has the chops when it comes to homicide investigation.  He begins with the known facts of the case; timings, locations, witnesses to Betty Short's final weeks of life.  Then he begins to extrapolate the evidence, and connect events

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Shame

Back when I was a kid, my parents shamed me about running away from conflict--"Don't you have any PRIDE?"  I'll never forget that lacerating sarcasm from dear old mom.  Now that I've learned that lesson thoroughly, and take no crap from ANYONE, I'm told I'm too aggressive, that I should be more tolerant and/or don't burn bridges.  What gives?  Isn't shame a perfectly good teacher?

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Politics; Cantor Loses Primary


The TEA PARTY does not represent the "Will of the People" any more than the WESTBORO BAPTISTS represent the "Will of God."

http://www.businessweek.com/articles/2014-06-10/with-eric-cantors-loss-the-republican-civil-war-is-about-to-explode

Saturday, May 3, 2014

May 2, 2014

Yesterday, May 2, 2014, was the 3rd anniversary of Osama Bin Laden's execution by Navy Seal.  And nothing much happened...  No missing Malaysian plane carrying a dirty nuke reappeared to explode anywhere.

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Glückliche Todes Tag

April 30, 1945. The Germans have a word for Hitler's final act: "Selbstmord." It's apparently something one performs--like a rite. Like seppuku. Apparently fascists think self-slaughter is theater. One wag once said: "Gotta love old Adolf--he was the guy who killed Hitler. Then another wag chimed in, "but you can still hate him, because he was the dude who killed the guy who killed Hitler."

April 30th: a.k.a. Walpurgisnacht: Walpurgis Night (in German folklore) the night of 30 April (May Day's eve), when witches meet on the Brocken mountain and hold revels with their gods...

So, have a bonfire and dance naked in celebration.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Killer Fruit

"Are you familiar with the term "killer fruit"? It's a certain kind of queer who has Freon refrigerating his bloodstream. Diaghilev, for example. J. Edgar Hoover. Hadrian."
     --Truman Capote, Answered Prayers

Answered Prayers is an uncompleted novel.  Excerpts were published in Esquire Magazine in 1976, with the result that Capote was alienated from all of his elite social contacts in New York.

I'm thinking of using "Killer Fruit" as the title for a true crime book.

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Christmas 2013

Happy Holiday Greetings to all of my friends and loved ones;

I have not sent a Christmas letter in 5 years or so, and I refuse to do so now—except to those who are querulously non-social and refuse social media, and in some really peevish cases, eschew email altogether.  Instead, I’m posting my Christmas letter. If you are reading this now, it is because you wish to.  And that’s the way I like it.

Let’s keep this short.  I moved to Los Angeles in May/June 2011, leaving behind my condo in Seattle which had become a millstone around my neck.  With the hope that it would sell for what I owed, I left the land of gloom and rain for sunnier climes. 

I was able to land a job within 6 weeks of arrival.  In retrospect that was as risky I have ever been—as I had only one job interview and one offer, the one I accepted.  I am information processing with the Law Firm of Gibson Dunn & Crutcher, an international LLP with over 3000 attorneys which I and my 24 co-workers support.  So that was a good thing.  In the 2 and a half years I’ve been here we’ve been involved in a number of cases of international and national importance, including Apple, Inc. v. Samsung, and Perry v. Schwartzenegger/Brown/ Hollingsworth, which went to the Supreme Court of the United States. 

Currently I live in beautiful Arcadia, California.  I don’t get to enjoy the sunshine much as I’m working harder than I ever have in my life.  Apparently my “retirement” happened between 45 and 55, a fact that I was quite unaware of at the time.

I’ve started a new business in narrating audiobooks.  I have several books under my own name ‘Michael Hacker’ which can be digitally downloaded to your PC, tablet or smartphone from Audible.com.  I also have a number of romances which are narrated under my pseudonym Lyn Madden, however, only “On with the Show” and the “The Gift” are g-rated so be warned.

Finally I’m delighted to say that my move has resulted in much better health and well-being.  I’ve now lost a total of 32 pounds and I’m back to my late-90s weight.  My goal is 225, which will be my college graduation weight.  However, I’ll be satisfied with 235, my weight before I stopped smoking in 1986. 

On a sadder note, I had to say goodbye to my sweet Molly Hamster, who developed late stage lymph cancer this past September.  I shall never forget our last night together.  She woke me up at 4 AM—even as ill as she was, she was still mindful of her training.  We went into the back yard, and she sat looking at the stars for the longest while, in perfect stillness.  I pray she was content.

Feel free to drop me a line or call if you would like more specifics regarding any of the above.  Although sunny and warm in lovely SoCal, I left all my friends behind in Seattle, and it’s been hard to make new ones given my schedule. 

Was that short?  I hope so.

Best wishes for a truly blessed Christmas,


Love, Mike

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Gear!

Last month I took the introduction to ProTools course at Citrus College.  After 8 3-hour classes my head was spinning.  I received good value for my money, but my questions about gear were still not being answered in a decisive way.  My question, would a preamp and analog microphone work better for my audiobook recording than a USB microphone? was met with a resounding "maybe."  The preamp that was recommended was the Focusrite Scarlett 2i2.  But the microphone?  All I knew was that I needed a cardiod condenser microphone (some say 'Large Diaphragm', but others say, it isn't necessary.

Finally, the illimitable Pat Fraley answered my question in his terse email manner.  Good old Pat is not terse in person, but his time is valuable, and so he communicates with the fewest words possible and still get his point across:
An USB is not good enough
You need a better mic and a digitizer.
For mic...step up to this:
Neumanns are the Rolls Royces of microphones.  Even at $700, this model is the introductory model.  However, getting the microphone first is putting the cart before the horse.  Even if I were to acquire the Neumann tomorrow I would still need a preamp (what Pat calls a digitizer.  He's a Mac guy).

Guess what I discovered today?  A brand new studio package from Focusrite called the Focusrite iTrack Studio, which includes preamp, monitor headphones, microphone cable and a "studio quality condenser microphone."  Check it out.

This is the same company that produced the Focusrite Scarlett 2i2, referenced above.  It only has one channel, but I only need one.  But the BEST PART?  It's compatible with both PC, Macintosh and iPad.  That's right, it will allow me to record on my iPad.  Should I ever want to do that.  The iTrack solo alone is only priced $100 less than the Studio package.  That extra $100 includes the microphone, cable, and headphones.  I need the preamp anyway; so I'm going to give this some serious thinking.  The package is due out in September 2013 (a little month away).  I'm excited.  This will give me an opportunity to practice with a side-address microphone and who knows?  Maybe the quality of my recordings will improve.  Little by little the gear improves.  I'll wait to get the Neumann until I really, really need it (i.e., when a contract requires it).


Sunday, March 10, 2013

πληρόω

πληρόω (plēroō). fill, make full · finish, complete · fulfill.

Some writers and critics suggest that St. Paul, writing to the Colossians, invoked a distinctly Gnostic concept of the fullness of God (pleroma).  (Elaine Pagels, Princeton University). 

Apparently there's a connection here to Greek philosophy in its reference to the substance of life beyond the merely phenomenological, i.e., a spirit.  Perhaps even the holy spirit?

In a way, and I hope I tread lightly on sensibilities here, this pouring out of the fullness of God seems to symbolically link with the figure of Aquarius, the water bearer, who pours out his vessel eternally in the heavens.  And as any new-ager knows (or any theater goer for that matter), we are at the dawning of the Age of Aquarius.

The Age of Aquarius is an astrological age, [an astrological age] shifts roughly every 2,150 years. It’s defined by the sun’s position at the time of the March, or vernal, equinox. The Age of Aquarius begins when the March equinox point moves out of the constellation Pisces and into the constellation Aquarius. But there’s no definitive answer as to when that will be.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Editing files on iPad and sharing

Pages is not the only full blown word processor out there for iPad. After spending $10 on Pages, I discovered that Microsoft recommends Doc2 (that's doc squared) for use with Skydrive and any Word files that you might want to edit on your iPad and then turn around and edit on your PC when you get home.  I went ahead and got the Doc2 app and it works like gangbusters.  You can export from the skydrive app directly to Doc2, and back again after editing.  It is seamless.  It has my ultimate highest five star ***** rating.

You can find Doc2 software (created by Byte2) here.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

oberster Gerichtsherr

oberster Gerichtsherr = Supreme Judge

"für das Schicksal der deutschen Nation und damit des Deutschen Volkes oberster Gerichtsherr"  - full quote from the justification speech, 13 July 1934, Reichstag.

Supreme Judge of the German People (German: Oberster Richter des Deutschen Volkes)

"...Although I had been willing to be lenient only a few days before, in this hour there was no longer any room for such consideration. Mutinies are crushed only by the everlasting laws of iron. If anyone reproaches me and asks why we did not call upon the regular courts for sentencing, my only answer is this: in that hour, I was responsible for the fate of the German nation and was thus the Supreme Justiciar of the German Volk! Mutinous divisions have always been recalled to order by decimation. Only one State did not make use of its wartime legislation, and the result was the collapse of this State: Germany. I did not want to abandon the young Reich to the fate of the old.

I gave the order to shoot those parties mainly responsible for this treason, and I also gave the order to burn out the tumors of our domestic poisoning and of the poisoning of foreign countries down to the raw flesh. And I also gave the order that if the mutineers made any attempt to resist arrest, they were at once to be brutally struck down by force (sofort mit der Waffe niederzumachen).

The nation should know that no one can threaten its existence-which is guaranteed by inner law and order-and escape unpunished! And every person should know for all time that if he raises his hand to strike out at the State, certain death will be his lot. And every National Socialist should know that no rank and no position relieves him of his personal responsibility and, with it, his due punishment. I have prosecuted thousands of our former opponents on account of their corruption.173 I would have to reproach myself if I were now to tolerate the same phenomenon in our own ranks..."



Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Docx to Pages

How to transfer Word files to my iPad and actually edit them? 

Microsoft Skydrive allows you to view any of your files on Skydrive with crystal clarity, but offers no editing feature (as yet).  You can open the PC site and use the Web App version of Word to edit files, but it is a singularly unsatisfactory experience on the iPad. We definitely hope this changes in the future.

So you have to use iTunes to import your docx or doc files into Pages. 

1. In iTunes click on your iPad in the Devices section on the left panel.
2. in the main panel click on Apps.
3. Scroll down until you see your Pages app displayed in the File Sharing section.
4. Click Pages in the Apps column
5. Click the add button in the Pages Documents column.
6. Add the document you wish from your drive or the cloud.
7. on the iPad click the + icon in the upper left, and choose copy from iTunes.
8. The file is downloaded into Pages and fully editable.

Return the file using the Pages export feature--you don't want to do the above in reverse do you?

Hopefully eventually Microsoft will offer an Apple ready app for Word editing, like they have for OneNote. Until then, the above 8 steps will have to suffice. 

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Jomic Web Start

If you're like me, you work at a place that doesn't allow you to download and install apps on your work machine.

Which means, you can't read CBRs or CBZs at work.

Never fear mon ami; there is a solution!

Jomic has a web app that pops up and allows you to read online.  All you need is Java 1.4 or higher (Java 1.4 was released in 2002, so you probably do).  Amble on over to their site and have a look. And happy comic book reading on the company dime!

http://jomic.sourceforge.net/webstart/index.html

Monday, June 18, 2012

Pat Fraley and the summer audiobook narration event

This past weekend I attended the Pat Fraley summer master's class in audiobook narration. Pat is probably the preeminent voice over teacher/coach in the world. Hillary Huber and Scott Brick also coached us on our demo excerpts. Scott is an audiobook superstar with over 600 titles to his name.

It was a whirlwind, but I feel that I will have, after some professional editing and mastering, three incredible demo samples to post on my ACX profile and my website (which does not yet exist!). 

Because this was a master's class and seminar, the 10 students took turns working with the pros and recording their excerpts while the rest watched. Reason being, when you're in the hotseat, you can't absorb anything but adjustments and direction. When you're in the booth watching others go through the experience, you can absorb concepts and techniques. It was well worth the expense, which was for me, considerable, but after the fact, when you realize how much care and concern each of the pros (and that includes Andy, the sound engineer) showed to every student, it seemed like a fantastic bargain!  And of course, my peers, the other students! The talent, so incredible. But we're in Hollywood, in the thick of it, and talent's taken for granted. The blade is there; we're just honing the edge.
Pat Fraley's Summer Master's Event

Monday, March 19, 2012

Noir

Neo noir requires a number of things, a prose voice that snaps, crackles and pops and sex, drugs and violence. It simply doesn't work without sex, drugs and violence. Try to write noir without those elements and very quickly you find yourself in Bugsy Malone territory, which is real kiddie porn without the sex: it shows prepubescent kids behaving like adults, dressed like adults, and with adult motivations. When they get splattered with cream, you go, "oh, yeah, I know what THAT means..." So I had to just make my characters high school seniors. It helped to watch Twilight the other night. The girls joking about the size of their boyfriends' bananas set my heart at rest. Now I need a freaking ending. My highschool gumshoe Rick Swick has a wooden tanto, and I think he's going to go all buffy on Edward's ass. But there needs to be a couple of reversals before that happens. I hate plotting... Character development and rising action are fun and games. Endings are hard work.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Neo Noir Noodlings

My noggin is noodling for some neonoir nonsense. Reading James Ellroy's Crime Wave currently and hepcats, it is da bomb! Never have I experienced such piercing yet purple prose. It rocks, it rolls, it smokes, it cornholes, it's fabulous to the maxi, and it speaks to me fortissimo! Ooooh daddy-O, give it to me like fizz in the joint, like a flaccid acid skid, a methy-dexy knock out punch, and I do mean TKO, sweets.

I have in mind a high school neo noir, a melange of messy matriculators, devilish delinquents trying to score to the core. The maguffin: Mr. Frink's stolen test questions, and set in the scintillating seventies, so I can dispense with all that turgid technology like personal computers and cell phones. Kids have to hoof it in their platform shoes and bell bottoms if they don't have sweet rides provided by their permissive parents.

Friday, March 9, 2012

Reactions

I'm so confused. My mind is spinning. I'm reading James Ellroy's Crime Wave right now. Crime Wave is a collection of shorter pieces, including the piece he wrote for GQ magazine which he later expanded into his memoir. It has my undivided focus and attention, like a laser beaming into my brain. This fluffy bullshit chick-lit style writing that includes every nuance of character reaction makes me want to puke (much the same reaction Rick Santorum has to JFK). Ellroy's is the kind of writing I want to emulate: powerful, muscular, spare--like a marathon runner, not like a big fat bacchus. Maybe that just means I have to write shorter pieces. Apparently novels these days require polixity.

Monday, March 5, 2012

GMC

No, not the car company. Instead something about writing.

An editor from Virginia called me last week and raked me over the proverbial coals for having a narrative voice too distant from my character's point of view. This is a common theme that I hear in criticism of my work. It implies that the reader has difficulty relating to the character, and that I should provide more sensory detail, more physical and mental reactions to the events that transpire in the story.

I well know that this is a big flaw in my writing. The Seattle agent that represents Dan Savage told me that my main character in "After the Fire" just didn't make her care enough about him. And that is after I've been working on fixing this problem for years. So obviously this kind of writing is not something that comes naturally to me. I see fiction like I see movies or video games; visually, with the camera over the shoulder. However, that's just not today's mode. The current mode is very close third-person point of view, the eyes of the character are the camera. It's a type of third person point of view that's almost, but not quite, as close as first person point of view.

One of the things the Virginia editor mentioned was something called "GMC" which she told me stood for "goals, motivation, crisis." So, I did a little research, and discovered a book called "Goals, Motivation and Conflict" by Debra Dixon. This seems to be exactly what the Virginia editor was talking about. I ordered the book. On Amazon, it's exorbitantly expensive for some reason, so order directly from the publisher.

I will post more after I receive it and digest its contents.